Let me first acknowledge all of the support I have received from my amazing friends. "Amazing" is such a bastardized word these days, but I truly can't think of a better way to describe you all! When I post about my test scores and my GPA and the big words I've learned (and actually know how to use), my friends are the ones who are there, clicking their encouragement. It means more than I'll ever be able to explain.
Not a single member of my immediate family ever bothers to be encouraging to me. Yep. I'm whining and I don't care because it chaps my ass. It only takes a second to click "like" on facebook. It only takes a few more seconds to post a comment, "Way to go! I'm really proud of you!"
Maybe it wouldn't bother me so much, but every time I *do* see or talk to any member of my family and I start to tell them something, they always say, "Oh yeah, I read that on facebook." So I KNOW they're reading my stuff!!! Is it possible that they are missing every post I make about my progress? Sure, I guess. I have beach front property in Iowa I'll sell you, if you believe that.
I hope I haven't passed this "tradition" on to my children. I hope I've instilled in them the need for one another. I hope they aren't ever as separated and disloyal as we are to one another. It's heartbreaking sometimes.
But on the other hand, when this is all said and done.....I did it on my own. I don't ask anyone for anything. No one pays my bills. No one makes my decisions. So, a big fat middle finger to anyone who deserves it, if you think it's you, it probably is. And a big effin wet slobbery kiss to the lips to anyone who deserves it. I hope you know who you are.
Crybaby exit stage left.
~H
it breaks my heart to read about how your family treats you. Mine is the same way, so i know how you feel. sometimes like an orphan. good thing in my "family" (friends) orphan plus orphan equals family :)
ReplyDeleteThey're not horrible to me, mostly they just ignore me and treat me like I'm 15 still and a trouble maker. I'm not, I'm full grown woman with a kick ass family, a rocking personality, and a bright future. I'll never forget who was there for me.
ReplyDeleteYou're still the most favorite person I've never met!! ;) GCan
ReplyDeleteSome people just don't know what they're missing!
ReplyDeleteMy findings have been the person doesn't realize how they are coming across. Or they don't know how much those things would mean to you. I have also learned that older generations do and see things in ways I will never understand. In lots of families sadly still hold on to the practice of "feelings & emotions" show weakness.
ReplyDeleteI am so happy FOR you. You have made leaps and bounds of progress in many areas of your live!
Thanks!! <3
ReplyDeleteI don't know what came over me today, but I just noticed "it" and "it" pissed me off. Especially when I noticed in my ticker that they "liked" other stuff, like singers and coffee. Really?! I rank lower than that???
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AWW! It will get better. We expect more from people because we would be willing to do that much for them. The majority of the time I think people honestly don't realize what you need from them. Draw them a picture if you need to! LOL I know its hard, saying something involving emotions makes you vulnerable to more rejection. We all see things differently. They may think they are being what you need, because THEY don't need much, or are afraid to display more affection.
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